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For Those ‘Why-Me?’ Moments…
December 29, 2013, 4:13 pm
Filed under: Human Potential

“Life will give you whatever experience is most helpful for the evolution of your consciousness. How do you know this is the experience you need? Because this is the experience you are having at this moment.”  — Eckhart Tolle in A New Earth (p. 41)

See also: No Fear, The Cap Is Here

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Not Oz, But Heaven
December 28, 2013, 1:51 pm
Filed under: Human Potential

“What’s [the world] to a nonbeliever/Who don’t believe in anything?”

— Adapted By Me from the song “No Church in the Wild”

I like my adaptation of these lines so much better than the words Frank Ocean sings in the song “No Church in the Wild.” He sings “a God” where I have inserted “the world.” I’m freeing myself from the world lately. Whenever I feel myself getting jealous, for example, or being critical of others, I allow it, rather than judging it as “bad.” Then I remind myself that it doesn’t matter if I’m jealous or critical. In reality neither of these things exist beyond my belief in this world’s judgments (such as that people with less money are less fortunate, or that people who are younger are more attractive). This world’s judgments are in the world what long kisses are in a soap opera: substance to keep the story going. They are what The Wizard of Oz was to Dorothy and her friends before he came out from behind the curtain: a reward and a reason for following the beaten path, also known as the Yellow Brick Road. I’m starting to see this world as a dream I am awaking from. And I feel more like a million dollars than I’ve ever felt–if a million dollars is as valuable as it is believed to be. Perhaps it’s more fitting to say, I feel like heaven.



It’s All The Same
December 28, 2013, 1:45 pm
Filed under: Human Potential

“If it makes you happy, it can’t be that bad. If it makes you happy then why the hell are you so sad.” — Sheryl Crowe in “If It Makes You Happy”

Sometimes I feel good about a certain person and I feel like it’s “bad” because I’m relying on an outside object to bring me a sense of satisfaction. Sometimes I try to undo this good feeling by thinking more “realistic” thoughts, such as that the feeling is something my mind made up, or that I have no chemistry with the person. And then I realize that trying to undo how I feel is unnecessary.

I think it’s okay (and helpful) to feel however you feel. In fact, if I go into a feeling, like fear, and allow it to be, I usually see that I am more than my feelings. Sometimes my feelings (jealousy, fear, irritation) suddenly seem small and unimportant. But pleasant feelings, like how I felt at the thought of the person (or even lust), I don’t always “go into.” I would like to try it to see what happens.  Are the feelings real?

If I am not absorbed in feeling good or bad, what do I do with myself and my time? (I ask questions like this a lot.) The answer is being, I guess. I have yet to see what to do with the clear space I am starting to have, when I am truly free.

A friend of mine told me the other day that she thought it was selfish to do things because you think they will make you happy. Instead she said it’s preferable to do what is best in any given situation.

I hope to simply do more of the things I want to do simply because I want to do them. As I write this, the first thing that comes to mind is to do something for someone. I’ll find a balance by considering what I want to do first.



The Answer?
December 21, 2013, 12:48 am
Filed under: Human Potential

I thought it was corny when I remembered it later, but when I first heard a voice say, “Everyone is a box of flowers,” in the middle of the night one night I thought it was something I HAD to share. Earlier that day, in the “Favorite Quotations” section on my Facebook page, I shared some things I’d heard voices say, and I just had this idea I was meant to share this, too. It was just how I felt when I heard it.

Anyway, I think it means that everyone is blossoming, like I am everyday, changing, growing, living. Love. You.



Uh, What About The Rest of The World?
December 21, 2013, 12:34 am
Filed under: Human Potential

Accepting someone isn’t about agreeing with him. Maybe it is good when we disagree with someone (and can’t change that)–or can’t connect with someone but we still like him or her. Ugh, I don’t know. Even though I wasn’t debating, I got so tired of talking today and I am unsatisfied by debate every time I do nowadays. But maybe I can just be with myself (it feels good in here when I’m here). And since we’re all one…? I don’t really know what the answer is. I like to sit alone and do nothing, I’ll just do that.

But I understand some poetry, some novels, some movies. I think…



How Could It Be… So Profound?
December 19, 2013, 6:36 pm
Filed under: Human Potential

“I do what I want.” — An 11-year-old I worked with once one on one in a fifth-grade classroom because his behavior was at times violent and disrupted the class

[I was speechless for a while after he said the words. A rebellious kid who just needed to get his act together (Really? More like a genius meant to change the world) stopped me in my tracks. I didn’t know why until later. How many people do what they want? So simple, and yet… I think I am finally getting it: “Will the real Slim Shady please stand up?” asked Eminem.]



On Going Ahead With Your Bad Self
December 18, 2013, 7:07 pm
Filed under: Human Potential

“Bang, bang, I’m calling your name. You’re like a fire the world can’t tame.” — Miguel in “Prime Time”